Winds of change - Truly a great blessing from God

September the 10th, 2015 was the day before a bank holiday; Election Day. Anticipating a long weekend and in a holiday mood, I decided to treat myself to a nice meal at a nearby mall. I sat next to an old lady who made light conversation with me. She reiterated what I was also thinking; my food was relatively expensive!

Yummy fish and veg lunch from a Malay stall

Copyright Fiona C Yeo @ Cartoon Lagoon 2015

 

Went back to the office to have my human paymaster drop a bomb on me.

 

Oh well. Change has finally come as the Lord had told me about 2 years ago. Change has in fact been taking place for the last 2 years and this is only a stone my wheel has to roll over while still moving forward!

 

What am I feeling now? Fear. Definitely fear of the unknown. At the same time, I am excited at what the future holds. Finally.

 

If you see me shedding tears, it's not because I want to grovel and beg for my job back or because I am sad. Far from it! It's because I can hardly believe how much Jesus loves me. I saw this coming as early as 2 years back and Jesus has never left my side. He has been with me all this time. I'm quite sure He frowns and I can hear Him go 'Tsk, tsk' when I curse and swear whenever I felt pissed by the conditions I was placed in and situations condoned. It's situations like this where I find it really difficult to reconcile myself to being a forgiving Christian. I know not how to turn the other cheek in this situation but at least I will be able to sleep soundly at night, knowing I have not slighted or short-changed anyone.

  

I'm sorry Jesus, if I have hurt you by being so angry at them. I was not pleasing to you, over and over again. I'm glad that it'll be all over soon but most of all, I feel so in awe with Psalm 91 which you have led me to.

 

When I read Psalm 91, tears fell because I felt so overwhelmed by the love of Jesus! He is assuring me that He has me safely in the palm of His hand and there is nothing I need fear!

 

Psalm 91 (copied from my personal Bible)

Whoever goes to the Lord for safety,

whoever remains under the protection of the Almighty,

can say to him,
"You are my defender and protector.

You are my God; in you I trust."

He will keep you safe from all hidden dangers

and from all deadly diseases.

He will cover you with his wings;

you will be safe in his care;

his faithfulness will protect and defend you.

You need not fear any dangers at night

or sudden attacks during the day

or the plagues that strike in the dark

or the evils that kills in daylight.

A thousand may fall dead beside you,

ten thousand all around you,

but you will not be harmed.

You will look and see how the wicked are punished.

 

You have made the Lord your defender,

the Most High your protector,

and so no disaster will strike you,

no violence will come near your home.

God will put his angels in charge of you

to protect you wherever you go.

They will hold you up with their hands

to keep you from hurting your feet on the stones.

You will trample down lions and snakes,

fierce lions and poisonous snakes.

 

God says, "I will save those who love me

and will protect those who acknowledge me as Lord.

When they call to me, I will answer them;

when they are in trouble, I will be with them.

I will rescue them and honor them.

I will reward them with long life;

I will save them."