Hazy morning in September
Copyright Fiona C Yeo @ Cartoon Lagoon 2015
Can't see the reservoir, can't see the bridge like road linking Seletar to Yishun town. Can't see Yishun. Can't see weight loss.
Well, actually, the weight did drop since yesterday but yesterday was a bad day from the viewpoint of the weighing scale and measuring tape!
It started with this innocuous looking bowl of Tom Yam Ramen:
Tom Yam Ramen
Copyright Fiona C Yeo @ Cartoon Lagoon 2015
I love Tom Yam Ramen found in Singapore food courts. I don't care if there's no such thing in Tom Yam land or Japan. There's something so comforting about the fat ramen (or 'lah mien' as we say it in Chinese) and the deliciously, sour, salty, sweet broth they soak in. Wednesday was the day before a public holiday and of course, you know me by now; I love to treat myself on days I am in a good mood. Just a bowl of carbo, how about it? Enough said.
The next day being THE public holiday itself, I was too lazy to brave the bad haze to go grocery shopping. As such, I decided to whip up fried noodles accompanied by fried fat sausages. I was a good girl and had half a fried soba fish but I couldn't resist eating the fried noodles. Just one small bowl, right? Then two (because it tasted good with cut chillies). Then again at dinner time. Well, now you know, how good I feel about myself now. Sigh.
I spent a good amount of time yesterday cleaning house and does that count as a work out? It should right? But I guess the weighing scale just saw the carbs coming in and forgot all about the housework. I am rambling. Yes. I am pissed with myself. I even did nearly 50 minutes of exercise. Yes, the weight did drop but it had shot up yesterday before dropping this morning. So I am back to still being a bit heavier than the lightest I had been in a very long time.
I knew it. I knew this would happen from as early as yesterday morning. I had taken a look at my weight and told myself that if I could keep really good self-control that whole day, I'd see a drastic drop in weight by the next morning. Alas. I had chosen to be greedy instead. What a fool.
At the end of the day, it is TRUE after all. In order to lose weight, you cannot just depend on dieting alone or exercising alone. They both have to go hand in hand. Although I can comfort myself and say the scales are still heading downwards albeit slowly, I will not. I really need to 'wake up my idea' (local slang for 'see the light') and see the bigger picture. Why would I slog it out nearly every single day and yet waste it away eating sub-standard food that is not worthy of the sacrifice? Yes, I call my cooking sub-standard. It is not worthy to be wasting calories on my cooking! How can I be doing this to myself? I really need to up my game. Every single time I want to cave to have some heavily calorie-laden foods, I need to remember the sight of my jiggly bits bouncing everywhere as I rebound. I need to remember the sight of my thunder thighs, up close and personal, in the mirror.
Do you have any idea how much time I have spent exercising in the past two months? Nearly every day! Yet, the scales aren't budging fast enough!!! I really have to take it up a notch with my meal plans! How is it people can lose 20kgs and I can barely move 2? Aarrrrrghhh! I am so angry with myself!
Well, the weekend is here and I already have a request for pasta from one of my kids. I love pasta. We'll see if I love it enough to suffer the angst of little or no weight loss again. I hope you who are reading this, have more will power than I do.
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