(for some reason, just felt I had to say that!)
View from my office window
I don't usually have the luxury of time to do it but when I can find pockets of time here and there, I do. Sit with God that is, in Adoration Room. Sounds quite bad actually. Like IF only I have time, will I go visit Him there. But He knows me. He knows that I'm beginning to speak to Him all the time. I just don't always go to Adoration Room to do it.
So I sat in there and had a nice conversation with Him. He didn't have anything specific to say to me. Neither did I. But He did ask me if I was ready to do His work. I said I was. Took me by surprise but He then asked me what work I thought I would like Him to give me. For a moment, I was about to silently reply, 'Anything'. But I stopped myself and said instead that He should give to me whatever He thought my strength could bear. I felt not-in-a-humble-way pleased with myself for even thinking that! Not that God couldn't hear my first intended reply but still, I think this reply was more apt and 'protected' me more than to say, 'Anything'!!!
So, what's up with Him asking me if I was ready to do His work? Have I not already been doing it? Well, I actually took a break. Truly, I did. I told Him about a year ago to please stop sending me on what He told me were 'Angel Messenger' missions. Angel Messenger! When I heard that term, I was really shocked. I'd never heard of that term before. The message for these people was surprisingly simple, " JESUS LOVES YOU". I look back at that and am quite in AWE. I mean, Jesus could have asked me to pass a long speech but He didn't. I just needed to say those 3 words to complete strangers. IF it had been ME trying to talk to them without the guidance of Jesus, I would have broken out into a long winded holier-than-thou lecture. But the message was from Him.
One day, I told Him that even though He thought I could do it, I thought I really couldn't. I'd faced my own persecution for doing so even though I had done these tasks readily and openly. So He did. Stop, I mean. I never heard another prompting to pass a message to a complete stranger at an address He had also provided me. I didn't and I was relieved. So I took a break....until recently.
For now, the messages aren't for complete strangers but for people I know. I now sometimes feel a strong urge to pray for certain people. I sometimes get a prompting that God has a message for them. I am still cautious because my good intentions can be misintepreted as being a busybody or as being a show off. I can imagine certain persons (God forgive me. I really need prayers for still thinking this) talking behind my back and hitting me below the belt for thinking I have the Gift of hearing God.
I'm cautious but I've also sort of grown bolder and I'm ready to step out of my comfort zone. Although I'd rather not face opposition from people who are supposed to be supportive (I do not mean my family - they were very supportive), I know that my instructions are from God and I work for God and not for them. I feel I'm being guided by the Holy Spirit. There is more discretion (I do it discreetly) and I have a certain level of conviction that I am being sent to provide words to these people for comfort. To let them know that even if they are not hearing God, God hears them. So there. If you happen to be one of my 'critics', know that I had ONE YEAR or more to be STILL WITH GOD. I am ready, even if you're not. The beauty of it all? God knew I needed a break to get my composure back and He knows I'm back on track spiritually, even stronger now than before. I'm not perfect but I've grown spiritually and He knows it. I do not know where all this is leading me but I'm just taking it one step at a time, letting Him lead and guide me.
Before I left Adoration Room yesterday evening, Jesus had some parting words for me.
'You do my work and I will do yours'.
That made perfect sense to me. Yes, Jesus, Amen!
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