In His time

One of the earliest 'modern' Christian songs I learnt was 'In His time'. Lyrics are simple yet relevant. Everything is in His time.

Just one day after I posted about searching for myself. God gives me a wake up call, in the form of a notice of the passing of a friend's husband to illness. This couple is about my age with young kids. They only had 5 months to grapple with the discovery and thereafter, treatment of his disease. This sister-in-Christ was baptised a year ago and in the last 5 months, her husband accepted Christ as his saviour. He managed to get baptised before his passing.

Here I am, tired, physically, emotionally, mentally and so I caved and wallowed in the slush pile of self-pity. Self-soul searching I thought. When I received the text message of this person's passing it was a jolt to my system. So I'm thanking God for my being physically, emotionally and mentally tired because it means I'm still alive. I'm still alive. My family is alive. My kids are alive. My beloved spouse, my life partner is alive. So the going gets tough sometimes and I'm tired but I'm alive. Thank you, Lord!