Learning from Heidi Baker - the awe and wonder of God

I am Catholic. Heidi Baker is not. I know I'm going to raise heckles just by saying this but I've learnt so much from Heidi Baker's stories (and I don't particularly care if it irks you that I like her). Just Google her or Youtube her (that would be best). She is a missionary who has spent the better part of her life ministering to the poor in Africa. I've just learnt that she's not turned back since she was baptised in the Spirit at 16. She's now in her early 50s.

What have I learnt? To accept the Glory of God in a most childlike manner. It is dying upon yourself and in a most childlike, innocent way, to embrace God and yield yourself unto Him. She is very childlike in that sense and I love it. She speaks from her heart. I get very excited hearing her speak because I too am like that. I feel like a child reaching my arms upwards, hoping my Father will give me the candy. Not everyone reacts to her the same way. Not every reacts like her. You need not be that way. There are many ways to react but I love, love, love the way she just opens her arms and her heart to Jesus.

When Heidi was told by God that she was being called to be a Minister and she'd be ministering in Africa, her human world around her went sort of chaotic, as you can imagine. She came from a privileged background and her parents and friends thought her quite crazy. Yet, she yielded the calling from God, came into His presence and never looked back. It has been a rough ride but hey, she has God on her side!

Nothing is impossible with the Lord. Nothing. I believe it.
I want to have that childlike innocence of Heidi Baker and continue to be in awe and wonder of God.
I am jumping up and down, my arms stretched out to Him, shouting,
"USE ME, GOD!!! USE ME, GOD! I WANT TO YIELD MYSELF COMPLETELY TO YOU. I DON'T CARE IF THE OTHERS DON'T GET IT. I DON'T CARE IF OTHERS THINK ME CRAZY. I DON'T CARE IF EVEN MY CHRISTIAN FRIENDS THINK I'VE LOST IT. I GET IT. USE ME, USE ME, MY LORD."

If anything, my year spent away from ministry has really strengthened my faith and my prayer life. He has a purpose for everything. He knew He had to take me away from ministry and let me grow. He knew I needed time away from it. He knew I needed to fix some broken parts of my life. He stood by me faithfully and I clung onto Him like a lost child. I don't know where I would be today without Him. I don't know where I'm headed but I've got God on my side. Lord God, you are simply amazing : )