In Pain

I've been in pain since the first night we started our 7 day midnight prayer journey and Mike has been down with the flu. I've had odd dreams and last night, I couldn't really sleep well. Kept waking up with disturbed dreams and the pain in my right elbow and back ache. The pain in my elbow started on the first night of our prayer journey and has gotten worse. It's excruciating now. Like a nerve is being pressed. I can't brush my teeth, comb my hair or lift up a clothes hanger without feeling the pain shoot up my whole arm.

I didn't see a doctor about the pain because of several reasons. 3 months ago, I suffered it in my left elbow. It took 3 months but the pain has finally subsided to a level where I'm able to use the elbow more. Back then, I could hardly lift my mobile phone off the table with my left arm. I'm thinking, the doctor will probably offer either painkillers, an x-ray, a steriod jab, mri and perhaps physiotherapy. But I think back to the time I had my knee pain and all the months of seeing doctors, the mri, having physiotherapy sessions which helped not and having the docs tell me it was also a degenerative process. My knee got better over time. It still creaks and gives way some times but not like before. No strenous exercise for me anymore though.

I see this elbow pain as annoying and a disturbance to my normal day-to-day existence but not life threatening. As such, I'm pretty much going to let it heal on its own and with the help of God! I'm just gonna have to learn to use my left hand (which is still in pain but much less than my right one).

I carry really heavy handbags. I don't know why. I feel lost without my stuff. Nothing in there is very heavy but everything added together makes it so. I like to have all my cards, my discount cards, my thumbdrives, my hair ties, my lipstick (I don't even carry alot of make up as I hate touching up make up), my pens, my different set of keys, my eyebrow 'plucker', my nail clipper....hee hee....When we travel, it gets worse with all the plane and hotel reservation sheets, the passports, the camera. Even when I'm home, when my kids need a nail clipper or pen, I just dig into my bag and voila!

I don't know how my shoulder lasted as long as it did. But I think my elbows are telling me something. But if my elbows hurting is really due to carrying a heavy bag around, how does one explain the left elbow? I do not carry my handbag on my left shoulder. I only carry it on my right shoulder. I think it also has to do with the many bags of groceries I like to carry at any one time and the consequence of years and years of typing at the computer. Oh well. I'll just pray for God's healing. I believe He'll cure me.